I'm not a "slacker", I have "newbie-paranoia"

I not a slacker...really. I want to write creative, exciting, thought provoking and inspiring posts. I want readers to go "ooooo, shes' good." I had dreams when I first started posting. I thought, "this will be easy, my life is so abby-normal that I will be able to post every day!" People will be inspired by my diligence. Shit, reality set in.

I sit down at my computer. Type, type, type, read, re-read, spell check, delete! Start again. Flip over to Shitsandgiggles post, Weatherchazer post and several others. OOO their good. Inspired again....type, type, type. GOD! You are boring AND stupid - DELETE!

Walk away, smoke cigarette get another "great" idea. The process starts again, this time I leave it.
Several days go by...No comments! God, I am boring and stupid! Call daughter. She is very reassuring.

Me: "Nobody reads my posts. Did you read it?"

Daughter: "Not yet, I'm cooking dinner, feeding beasts, yelling at hubs."

Me: "When you gonna look at it? When you do tell me what you think, nobody reads it or leaves me a comment."

Daughter: Ma, look at your counter, not everyone leaves a comment."

Me: "Why? I comment on posts I read"

Daughter: "Your new."

Newbie-paranoia! I feel like Sally Fields when she won her Oscar when I get a comment, "You like me, you really like me."

Yeah, this ones stupid too! DELETE