The boo-hoo babies

It's the New Year 2008! So many things have past and so many things to come. I should be excited, rejuvenated and making plans, resolutions and generally "ready to go". So why do I have the boo-hoo babies? Why is the episode of "Monk" about his murdered wife making me cry? The husband has gone to play golf...again. This should make me happy, right? House to myself, TV to myself and making New Years' day dinner. I love to cook, this should make me happy. So why do I have the boo-hoo babies?

Maybe because I'm exhausted? Since I have had the weekend and Monday off I've cleaned three closets, the laundry room and cleaned the house from top to bottom. I've done all the laundry, changed the sheets on 2 beds, put all of Christmas away, been to the grocery, Walmart, peeled and diced onions, tomatoes and put my black-eyed peas and collards on the stove. I'm happy husband went to play golf...again. But on the other hand I'm totally pissed off about it. How come I have said "Its' OK for him to have down time and do something fun, but not me"?

Maybe because 2008 is relatively scary? The economy, world unrest, war, uncertaintity and global warming!

Maybe because at 50 I'm finally starting to say "Ok, so you look younger than that, but if you lose your job (construction is slow here and everywhere) who will hire you? No college degree, a G.E.D. only 26 years of OJT as a bookkeeper, you are pretty much prepared to be a ....What?

Maybe because I'm just having a plain 'ol pity party for myself?
This is the first time in a very l - o - n - g time I've got the boo-hoo babies.
Is it my turn? Is it all "just in my head" and basically my hormones are just running loopy and I need a good cry to clear the air?

Who knows? Cerainly not me right now. Its' 2008! Dammit Grammice! Suck it up you baby! You have a great huband who adores you, a family who truly loves and accepts you for who you are, a nice house, a job, your health.... see, now I've made myself cry again...Dammit Grammice!!!!! (Open the link below..I hope I did this right.)
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